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Sunday, 24 August 2008 @ 2:56 pm

One month had passed... ... I had not see you, hug you and kiss your forehead for one month. I miss you every day. How I wish i can see you again, i miss hugging you when i know i could not hug you anymore. It really hurt. Now then i know, the pain grow stronger day by day instead of getting lesser. Everything happened so sudden, you just left us. It seem like you will reach home late every night, therefore we are not able to see you. I really really miss you badly. Papa.

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Saturday, 23 August 2008 @ 8:53 pm

One Step At A Time

da da da um da da

da da da ba um da da

da da da um da da

da da da ba um da da

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste

But you just can't touch

HOOK

You wanna show the world but no one knows yours name yet

Wonderin' when, where and how you're going to make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you getting all kinda impatient

Waiting, we live and we learn

CHORUS

To take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly, or falling in love

It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

And we find the reasons why

One step at a time

da da da um da da

da da da ba um da da

da da da um da da

da da da ba um da da

You believe, and you doubt

You're confused, and got it all figured out

Everything that you always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yoursIf they only knew

HOOK

You wanna show the world but no one knows yours name yet

Wonderin' when, where and how you're going to make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face and the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you getting all kinda impatient

Waiting, we live and we learn

CHORUS

To take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly, or falling in love

It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

And we find the reasons why

One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer (you can't wait)

But there's no end in time (when you need to find the strength)

It's your faith that makes you stronger (the only way we get there)

The only way we get there

Is one step at a time

To take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly, or falling in love (Falling in love)

It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

And we find the reasons why

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly, or falling in love (Falling in love)

It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen

And we find the reasons why

One step at a time

Kylie intro me de. :)

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Friday, 22 August 2008 @ 9:19 pm

Last moment for the Table tennis girls.

Well Done.

Finally! We did it!

Feng Tian wei. *Clap*

She is sooo cool. :)

Zhang Yining,

She never smile.

It is hard to see Zhang Yining to smile. Hahas. :P

Li JiaWei!!! Cute...

Go go go

Tears of joy.... :)

Olympics Table tennis had come to the end. Singapore had done well!! We had achieved one sliver medal in table tennis. Feel so proud of Singapore. Although quite a number of them think that they were born in china, so there is nothing for us to happy about. I think is quite unfair for them, they played for Singapore and they are proud of that. Every time see them play for Singapore, I felt so excited. I really like them, especially Feng Tian Wei, this is the 1st time see her, she is very cool....I think she play well, too bad she need to play with Zhang YiNing,world no. 1, in the quaterfinal . And Li JiaWei, she is cute with her facial expression and her action. She play quite well. Sorry, I don't have much impression of the third one, so... ... Anyway, GOOD JOD for your table tennis's girls. Keep it up. Three cheer for all of you. China's table tennis girls are really good. :)

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Tuesday, 12 August 2008 @ 11:39 pm

OMG! OMG! OMG!....

Today got back our MT's O'level result. I got an A1 for my Chinese! Actually i don't really have confident because I scored A2 for my math which was my best subject. I aimed A2 at the start of the year, because I didn't did well since I enter secondary school. But my bro tell me that I should aim for A1 as I might drop by one grade, hence become A2. I told myself that I want to score A1 because I am not really confident in my other subjects. I am very happy that I scored A1. Too bad my dad didn't see it, but i believe that he know it somehow and are very happy. :)

" Papa, I did it! Although it is only one subject but i know you are happy enough and hope to see more. I will do my best de. :)"

To Anyone who can advice me:

I always thought of going poly, leisure and resort management, which has a cut-off point 11 in 2007. I also hope to enter UNI( part of my father wish) after i finish my poly. However the percentage of entering UNI through poly is only 5%, this means that 100 students, only 5 students could enter UNI. My mother told me today that, she hope that i could enter JC instead, which is least one year and is easier to enter UNI. But I do not like the lifestyle of JC, and scare that i could not cope with my subjects especially ENGLISH. PLEASE ADVICE ME!!! Thank you. ( Please make sense. If too long, tell me in school instead when you see me. Thanks)

PLUS. I agreed with Meiyan that Mr wong is a good teacher. Without him, I am sure i will not score that well, or even worst, just pass for my o'level chinese. My chinese wasn't that good when i in secondary school. Especially when i am taught by somebody which caused me to hate chinese. But don't worry, I love chinese now! A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO MR WONG FOR BEING A WONDERFUL TEACHER!!!

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Friday, 8 August 2008 @ 9:43 pm

My heart is hurting... ...

It really hurt.

Please tell me what should i do.

I hate the feeling,

Yet i cannot do anything.

I felt so terrible now.

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Thursday, 7 August 2008 @ 11:02 pm

Today went to Tampines Mart to have lunch and study with Meiyan, Jueying, Kylie, Cindy, Azlynn, Huishan, Yiheng and Desmond. Did our POA, everything seem right at the starting. But I suddenly lost my mood and don't have the mood to study. Meiyan they all keep cheering me up. Wanted to go home at 515, but ended up reaching home at about 8 due to the rain. It was so heavy!. Saw Pooh's notebook for $1.95 each. So Meiyan, Jueying, Cindy and me brought one each. They had four designs but we didn't buy all the design, because Jueying and I love tigger so we brought the same book. =)
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My mum looked very tired and weak, I don't know how to help her. She cried more often nowadays, the only thing I can help her was to hug her and give her a kiss on her forehead. I hope this will console her. I just went speechless because me myself feel like crying. I know it is hard for her, she had lost someone she loved for 20+ years. They alway together in and out, work, market and outing. For me, at least i didn't see my dad in school, and going to school will help me not to think about him.
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Meiyan: Hope you can join us for more chit chat session, which Jueying, Kylie and I had most of the time after school. It always nice to find someone to talk to whenever you need. You also had been a good listener when i need it. Thanks so much. Remember cheer up.! :)
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Jueying: You had been listening to me when I need you. Hope I won't sound too talkative, and I appreciated you for accompany me after school, especially this few days, because we had been release early. Not like the normal days when i will go home straight. Think of me when you need someone. :)
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Yasmin: You had always cheered me up. Thanks so much. You make feel like going A.math and having e.math lesson more. You had also tell me alot of your secret, don't worry I didn't tell anyone, and i like you to know that i felt honour that you share things with me. :)
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Anna: Enjoyed talking to you in school, however if you need to be with gary in school go ahead. I won't blame you anymore, seriously . I understand I will face this sometime in my life, is just sooner or later. Family will always come first, and since you had see gary as your future. This may happen in 5 years time if it does not happen now, so i must learn to accept it. Our friendship will continue. ( I don't know i had said it correctly or not, hope you understand what i am trying to say. Not meant to be offensive) =D
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Enough of talking! Took some picture in Mac.

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Wednesday, 6 August 2008 @ 9:33 pm

" Unpleasant memories can turn good,
when there is no more addition memories."
-Jasmine

I am so tired, both physically and mentally. I have told myself not to think anymore, everything around me just don't seem right. I had been losing one thing after another, all of them is my loved one. I hate that, i hate the feeling and i hate myself. Everyone had told me to be strong, I really don't know how long i can take it. The days went by, and the more I miss my father. I alway thought school is a place for me to escape to, yet school itself have another problem waiting for me. I cannot cry infront of my mother, neither i can cry in front of my classmate nor anyone. I really hope everything can just be gone when the time pass by, which i think is very difficult. The memories of my father keep coming to my head, the more i think, the more my heart aches. My heart are tearing apart. I can really feel the pain, it hurt.

Anna be gald that so many ppl cares for you, seriously. I am not jealous that there is so many people that concern you. Do treasure them as i said, you may not get it back if you lost them.

For those who helped anna,

I hope you all know, friendship and relationship is the same. It could only be solved by the person itself. Cause you all don't know what had happen between anna and me.. Thank you.

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Friday, 1 August 2008 @ 9:08 pm

Firstly, I would like to thanks everyone for your concern and thanks for coming to my father's wake. I really know that i had lots of friends who concern me, from school, TRU, and others. I am very happy that you all came to the wake and the SMSes did console me. I did feel better. Almost all of my teacher came down too, they really dote me alot. Some may not show it out, but i could feel it.

During the wake, Sengyi, JJ and Wallace come down almost everyday to help us, even though they know we didn't have time to accompany them. Especially Sengyi, he stay over every single night to help look after our thing so that my mum and me could rest. I told my brother to treasure this friendship, because this might not come again if he lost it and it is difficult to find one, yet he got 3.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE. I AM VERY TIRED!!!!

The following is for jocelyn... ...

To jocelyn:

I saw the message for me in your blog le. Thanks so much! Whenever i saw the message i really feel like crying, indeed I did cried. It just soften my heart, I don't know how to say it. It make me no longer strong. But i don't dare to cry, I am so afraid that my mum see me. Really, thanks for the message. Love you all too :)

Labels: I miss my papa

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